johnny stallings

The Golden World

I like to begin each day in what I call “the Golden World.” One day, some years ago, I sat down and tried to describe it. It’s not easy to describe, since, like everything else, it’s indescribable. Here’s what I cam up with (slightly revised):

 

THE GOLDEN WORLD

 

where is the golden world?

it’s right here

 

what is it?

it’s a place of quiet joy

a place where everything is miraculous

 

i know i’m in the golden world

when there is nowhere i would rather be

 

the golden world is paradise

not the paradise that existed long ago

 

or the paradise that is yet to come

 

but this one

 

to get to the golden world

one thing that sometimes helps

is to slow down

 

rushing around

trying to get somewhere else

we fail to appreciate where we are

 

when this ordinary world is alive for us

with beauty, with joy, with love, with peace

we are in the golden world

 

this ordinary world is the golden world

transformed by a shift in the way we see it

or feel it

 

one of the most astonishing things about us

is our ability to take things for granted

we get used to trees, to the sky, to birds

to each other

to ourselves

to life as we live it

 

we are just here a little while

we better wake up right now

 

we are always in the golden world

but when we imagine it is somewhere else

we feel that we are in exile

 

hoping we will somehow improve

wishing things were different

we miss the blessings we have

the blessings of who we are

 

a goldfinch doesn’t imagine that it can improve

 

there is suffering within us and around us

the remedy for the suffering within us is close at hand

 

as for the big world

it is always simultaneously full of great suffering

and great beauty

 

if we do not live in quiet joy

in beauty, in truth

in freedom, in love—

what i am calling the golden world—

we cannot transform the suffering

 

of course, some suffering is built into the world

we are mortal creatures

disease and death are inevitable

 

but there is gratuitous suffering

we create through our ignorance,

our hatred, our anger, our fear

if we imagine we have an enemy

we are always at war

 

our inner conflict is the source of much outer conflict

wars begin in the minds of men

 

there is a stillness

in which there is no conflict

we can live there

or here

in the golden world

 

the peace which passeth understanding

is our birthright

maybe we forgot

got lost

 

it’s time to remember

to come home

to the golden world

 

we are born into the golden world

we learn to understand and to speak a language

it’s an astonishing thing!

 

we create an identity, a story about who we are

we create a mythos, a story about the world in which we live

these are fantastic achievements!

 

but, alas!, these stories become the prisons in which we live

we take everything new and turn it into something old

 

we don’t live in the world

we live inside our descriptions of the world

 

we are fictional characters

living in fictional worlds

that we imagine into being, from moment to moment

 

the golden world is this ordinary world

not mediated by thought or language

 

we touch it all the time

whenever we take a sip of tea

and are not doing anything but taking a sip of tea

we are in the golden world

 

a quiet setting makes it easier for us to experience the golden world

but when the stillness is strong within us

the whole noisy world is golden

 

when thought and language are our tools

rather than our masters

they are a blessing

not a curse

 

when meditation is not just something we do for half-an-hour in the morning

when we live in meditation

we live in the golden world

 

we are always in the golden world

whether we know it or not

the place we’ve always wanted to get to

is where we are

 

that which is not born

and does not die

is who we are

 

in the golden world

there is nothing to strive for

no regret

 

all our sins are washed away

 

the golden world is not an imaginary place

the world described in the newspaper is an imaginary place

 

the golden world is never somewhere else

it is always right now where we are

or not at all

 

when you are in it

you are not

 

when you can’t see it

you are blind

 

when the poet said

“each moment and whatever happens thrills me with joy”

he was in it

and when he said

“Divine am I inside and out,

and I make holy whatever I touch

or am touch’d from”

he was in it

 

when another poet felt that he “was blessed

and could bless”

he was in it

 

another poet clarified the matter when she said:

“The Infinite a sudden Guest

Has been assumed to be–

But how can that stupendous come

Which never went away?”

 

you can’t get to the golden world by trying to go there

when you are not trying to go somewhere

not trying to do something

not trying to be someone

you might find that you are in the golden world

 

when i’m in it, i think

“this is my home

i must never allow myself to lose this

even for a moment”

 

then, later, it’s gone

did i leave the golden world?

or did it leave me?

 

i find myself in exile

and want to return

 

i know that that wanting condemns me to exile

and so i seek to find my way home by a kind of indirection

instead of doing something

i do nothing

 

when the mind is quiet and alert

it doesn’t matter whether “i” am in the golden world or not

the question doesn’t arise

or if it does

it is seen for what it is

 

the squirrel outside, sitting on a branch

has no ideas about a golden world

and so it lives in the golden world

 

“the golden world” is a name i give to something

that has no name

 

to have an identity is to be in exile

 

am i in the golden world?

or is the golden world in me?

 

behind each person’s mask

shines a radiant, glorious, perfect being

 

beneath who we pretend to be

is who we are

 

at those moments when we see through everyone’s mask

we are in the golden world

 

when we see through someone’s mask

it is impossible not to love them

 

for this to be paradise

we have to love everyone

without love, it isn’t paradise

 

when where we are

and where we want to be

are the same place

we are in the golden world

 

the seer sees the golden world

the seeker seeks the golden world

the seeker asks: where is it?

the seer replies: where isn’t it?

 

this is it

 

you want a miracle?

the poet said:

“a mouse is miracle enough to stagger sextillions of infidels”

 

if that is so

where can you find something that is not miraculous?

 

there has never been

is not now

and will never be

anything more perfect

more beautiful

more miraculous

than a glass of water

 

there are miracles everywhere you look

the eyes with which you see

are miraculous

our brains, nervous systems

our heart’s pumping blood

miracles!

 

that we are alive

and aware

in this world of marvels

is a great blessing

 

 

—Johnny Stallings